russian

so you say that you will have a 28 year old russian woman coming to stay with you for awhile? WOW!!!! wtf are you thinking? at what point did you think this was going to be a good idea? or that everyone would be okay with it? mom hasn't even been laid to rest completely and already you are going to have someone shacked up on her side of the bed? are you serious? i'm sure she will sit in mom's chair, eat from mom's seat at the table, swing on mom's swing, bathe in mom's tub and will she drive mom's car? obviously i am not okay with this. do i have anything against the girl personally? no but that doesn't change the fact of what she will represent while she is here "mom's replacement" i hope you wake up one day and realize that mom can never be replaced. you will not find happiness in this. she doesn't know who you really are, what you've done. i do not care to meet her. when we let mom fly, i can't guarantee that you will be there for it. she is not welcome to be there for it. do not call yourself a widower, you are not this. you are the ex to my deceased mother. i still welcome you in my life but shit can only go on for so long. this pushes the knife in deeper. this is so embarrassing. if you wish to call yourself a widower, as you so have done, then how can you so easily already have someone in mind to hold? it makes me sick. does she know the truth? the countless fights, the abuse, what really happened to mom, where it happened, why it happened? will she know that on that right side of the bed where she will lay is the same spot that mom laid for seventeen years or that that is the spot that we found her in her wedding dress full of pills and alcohol and meds trying to kill herself? i don't like it. i don't like it one bit. it's bull shit. it's horrible. it will never be accepted.